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Tuesday, 21 March 2017

stubb in moby dick

i know not all that may be coming, but be it what it will, i'll go to it laughing. 


man is in love, and loves what vanishes. 

something wicked this way comes, ray bradbury

but what father ever really believes it? he carried no burden, he feels no pain. what man, like woman, lies down in darkness and gets up with child? the gentle, smiling ones own the good secret. oh, what strange wonderful clocks women are. they nest in time. they make the flesh that holds fast and binds eternity. 

they live inside the gift, know power, accept, and need not mention it. 

why speak of time when you are time, and shape the universal moments, as they pass, into warmth and action? 

how men envy and often hate these warm clocks, these wives, who know they will live forever. 

so what do we do? we men turn terribly mean, because we can't hold on to the world or ourselves or anything. we are blind to continuity, all breaks down, falls, melts, stops, rots or runs away. so, since we cannot shape time, where does that leave men? 

sleepless. staring. 

Friday, 20 January 2017

baby talk

mum, i want a baby. 


but i don't want to get married to the wrong man. so, i just want the baby, can? 

"i'm driving now to get food.

***an hour later, she calls -- 

"awak tengah buat apa

tryinna make a baby, mum. 

"ish, awak ni. main-main pulak."  

Saturday, 7 January 2017

beauty & the beast

my all-time favourite disney. i don’t care what people say about walt disney and his misogynistic undertones. 

lennon wisdom

a: the river styx. it’s so...

c: polluted. for thousands of years, humans have been throwing in everything we come across – hopes, dreams, wishes that never come true. irresponsible waste management, if you ask me. 


a: do you really believe that we need to have our hearts ripped out?

c: a flower can’t grow without rain.

a: too much rain and it drowns.

c: and the most beautiful of the lotus flowers are the ones that grow in the deepest mud.

a: *snorts* (coz i’m ladylike that way) you’re not going to let me win this one, are you?

c: there’s nothing to win. as john lennon once said, “life is what happens while you’re making other plans.” it's messy and heartbreaking, but at the same time, it’s a thrill ride. 

“i meant no disrespect.”

actions are far more important to me than words that profess intent, as those actions, more oft than not, betray your real heart.

the greatest way to live with honor in this world is to actually be what we pretend to be. let others laugh and mock those of us they perceive beneath them, but remember, honor lies inside our hearts and it is that which makes us act with mercy and compassion against those who have most wronged us. 

Thursday, 5 January 2017

time moves on, people do not

“when i think about the way people can be, i rasa i get upset because i naturally assume that you’re not stupid; and when you prove me wrong, i get very confused. to compute it causes cognitive dissonance. when people don’t match the respect i afford them.” 

the toothbrush

that little clench of the heart 
at an appearance or absence 
of a toothbrush in your bathroom. 

Friday, 30 December 2016


look at you, look at you
look what you made me do
how do you, how do you
figure my every move
who are you? who are you?
you look so familiar
i know you, i know you, 
baby, i know the truth 

we've got way too much in common
if i'm being honest with you 
we've got way too much in common 
since i'm being honest with you 

who wants to love somebody like me
you want to love somebody like me 
if you could love somebody like me
you must be messed up too

we used to talk til midnight
all those days that you stayed at my house
we were just passing the time 
when we were young and we ain't had no vows
now, now, now, maybe later on i'll text you 
and maybe you'll reply 
we both know we had no patience
together day and night